When I decided that being out of the apartment wasn’t helping much, I went back home and cleaned. He always made me feel better and helped me take my mind off things. Maybe that was because Spencer wasn’t with me. It didn’t make me feel better like it usually did. So I ventured out and went to the coffee shop down the street then went to the closest bookstore. Spencer’s team has been more like a family to me than my actual family, so why does that matter.Īfter a few minutes of sulking on the couch, I finally decided I should do something. Which is weird, considering we’re family. Not because anything bad happened between us. Once the meeting was officially over, I sat back on the couch and wondered if even my parents would call me. That was how my relationship with half my colleagues was… Joking around and poking fun at each other. Actually, if anyone did ask what was wrong, they’d probably be sarcastic about it. Would it have been nice if someone asked? Yeah, just to know that someone one cared. And if they did, they didn’t say anything about it. Just as I expected, no one noticed my sour mood. Going on about my day as if it was a normal day was usual. After all the years that had passed and everything that’s happened. I had to go about my day as if nothing was wrong. I didn’t want to explain anything to anyone. An online meeting would be happening any minute now, and I really hope no one would ask what was wrong. However, I have actual adult things to do, even if I don’t want to do them.Īfter I finished making the bed, I went to the living room where my laptop sat waiting for me. Even though I had showered, combed my hair, brushed my teeth, and got ready like it was a normal day, I still looked terrible and still felt awful.Īll I wanted to do today was lay in bed with the blanket wrapped around me. Maybe after I actually got ready for the day I’d look a little better it was hard to say at this point. Just because I slept well into the afternoon didn’t mean it was restful. If I didn’t have to exist, then I didn’t have to deal with my friends or family.ĭragging myself out of bed, I brought myself to the bathroom. I just wanted to stay asleep, and not exist for the day. My body knew what day it was before I even remembered. It was nearly 1:00 pm when I finally decided to get out of bed. I had no clue just how long I had stayed asleep, my alarm had been snoozed so many times that it just shut off. Well, I should say he woke me up to kiss me good-bye before he left for work. Spencer had left, gone to work a few hours before I even thought about waking up.
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